Thursday, 26 March 2009

• my decision ( the end of this site)

  hey my sweethearts.

  first of all:

  I'm posting although I'm not below 50 kilo. I 've come to the conclusion that ( like you said in your comments) it was a dumb idea to stay away from xanga in order to b more motivated. The truth is that I ALWAYS have problems with my b&p habits and my depressions no matter if I'm on here or not...and that it has no influence on the time i need to lose weight. the only thing that changes is that i miss writing.

  instead I decided to finish with struggling2beME...it's kinda hard because i really like this site and the time with you ( omg I sound like theworst drama-queen^^)...but there are also many bad memories connected with it, and what i really really need now is a change ( not only what concrns eating. )

  what I will probably miss is my name, as is fit so well. on the other hand it sounds a bit like: "I#m the poor one who always has to struggle to be herself while the others are cool and perfect"...which is bullshit.  life is an ongoing struggle to reach whatever you want anyways-for everyone. You are never EXACTLY what you want tobe, you are never perfect ( you can only thrive for it). And i think i know who I am (inside) and what i want...I just have to start living. ( yeah, now I'm definately being a drama-queen...and talking too much...whatever )

  I'll write more on the new site this evening.

  if you want to support me, or just read you can add me: www.xanga.com/RunTroughTheRain.

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